My Hindi Poems

MIL JAATI HAI HAR CHEEZ IBAADAT SE

Bachpan mein logon sey suna tha ki mil jaati hai har cheez ibadat sey

Dil karta hai ki ab aazmaa loon dua kar ke apne parwar digaar sey

Na jaane kitne sholon ko liye apne jigar mein firtey hain kab sey

Unko dhoondhtey huye chaltey hain ab lekin mulakaat na hoti hai un sey

Yeh toh nainsaafi hai ki wo milta nahi jinko maanga tha maine maalik sey

Waada kiya aur sab waadon ko nibhaya par kyun unko chheen liya mujh sey

Jo jakham khaya hai aur jo jahar piya hai ab kayse bachoon us dukhde sey

Intzaar ki bhi hadd hoti hai ab ham jiye ya fir mar jaaye unki bala sey

Jab jindgi jinda dili ka naam hai toh kyun unko  door kiya hai mujh sey

Aysa kyun nahin ho sakta hai ki meri dilruba waapas aajaye fir sey

Ek Aag Lagi Hai Dil Mein

Ab ek aag laga hai dil mein thoda jal se bujha do par hawaayen to inko na do

Yeh aag jo dhadhak rahi hai seene mein bhadak jaayegi ab koi sadaayen bhi na do

Jitney bhi jahar mila hai jeewan mein hamko sab apne hi logo ne diye hain

Ab to tum bhi nahi ho yahan is jindgi ko kaun duwayen de dukh dard se bhare hain

Aysa ho jaaye ki palat kar aajaawo agar tum to mera jina khushhaal ho jaaye

Meri jeene ki chah phir aajaayegi mera jewan chaman chain se bhar jaaye

Saath dena hi hai to ayse door door rah kar mujhko sadaayen to na do

Bula lo hamko apne hi paas ya aajaawo mere pass mujhko sajaayen to na do

Is toote dil ke dhadhakti aag ko bujha do ab inko koi hawaayen to na do

Hawa dena hai to aysa do ki ham yahan na rahe aur tum bhi yahan na raho

CHAMAN KHIL UTHEGI

Meri akkal toh chakra gayi hai is duniya ki haal dekh kar

Koi chaahne wala chala jata hai hamko yahin pe chor kar

Jab kisi ki madhur yaaden hamko sataati rahen aa aa kar

Ayse akelepan mein main kidhar jaawoon iss dilko le kar

Duniya ke sabhi yaar muskuraatey rahe mere is haal par

Main jalata rahoon apne dukh dard ki shamma yahin par

Lakhon gam ki lao seene mein thartharati rahe raat bhar

Jab baansuri si surili aawaz aake jagaye hamko raat bhar

Purani yaaden nayee ban ke aati rahen samney raat bhar

Unki yaadon ke chaand tarey maddratey rahen raat bhar

Diwaane ki tarah main phirta rahoon sab kuchh haar kar

Yeh jina bhi koi jeena hai jab dildaar nahin rahi ghar par

Koi toh mere ghar aangan mein diya jala jaye phirse akar

Sab chaman khil uthegi mere duniya ki nayi haal dekh kar

                                       CHOT KHAANE KE BAAD

अब पता चला की ख़ामोशी भी बहुत कुछ कह जाती है

इस हालत में तड़पाने के लिए बस याद ही रह जाती है

क्या फर्क पड़ता है वसीहत हो या SONE का हार भाती है

जल जाने के बाद केवल उन की राख ही नज़र आती है

दिल में दर्द हो तो मालूम पड़ता है की ये सांस चलती है

चोट खाने के बाद ही सही दर्द की एहसास मिल जाती है 

Ek Hawa Ka Jhonkha

Jis surat par mera dil gaya us chehre sey aankh hatati nahin

Aysa tabhi hota hai jab pyar ho jata aur dil kho jata hai kahin

Ek hawa ka jhonkha tha jo aayaa par apni yaaden chor gaya

Yahi toh mera sab sey achha tohfaa tha jo ab kahin kho gaya

Aasmaan ki chamakti tara thi wo meri badi keemti kitab thi

Mere jine ka ek hi sahara thi wo aur mere liye meri gulab thi

Mere sapno ki rani thi aur phir ek khubsurat kahani bhi thi

Mujhko maloom hai wo kaun thi wahi toh meri jindgani thi

Bina uske jina dushwaar hai par jee toh lenge unke pyar mein

Hans khel kar khushiyan manane wale ab rote hain ghar mein

JINDGI BHAR INTZAAR KARE

Ham dono mein pyar mohabbat hua aur ikrar bhi hua

Hamara milan ho gaya aur phir hamara shaadi bhi hua

Susaag raat ke andhere mein usne mujhe ek tohfa diya

Mere naazuk hantheli par usne apne ungali se likh diya

Main ne jab  unse poochha ki aapney aysa kya likh diya

Jawaab aaya ki ‘mujhe tumse pyar hai’ bas yahi likh diya

Na jane wo kaysi siyahi thi jisse usne yah baat likh diya

Wo alfaaz na aaj tak mitey aur na hi mujhe dikhai diya

Hamara jiwan chalta raha aur ham phoolte phaltey rahe

Pariwaar sukhi hua aur chaar bacche naati potey ho gaye

Sab mushkilon me mere dildaar ne hamko sambhalte rahe

Apne aap ko sambhalne ka samay aaya to wea chale gaye

Mushkil samay mein hamne bhi unka saath chor diya

Unka to beda paar ho gaya mushkil me ham pad gaye

Unki har haar aur jeet unki hi soch vichaar par rahti thi

Wo maan leti to haar jaati aur thaan leti to jeet jati thi

Kahti thi khushi ke liye kaam karoge to khushi nahi milegi

Lekin khush ho kar kaam karoge to tumko khushi milegi

raastey badal jaatey hain aur manziley badal jaati hain

Par ye dil kyun na badalta jab takdeere badal jaati hain

Pyar karney laga main uljhan mein jeene laga hoon

Diwaana to tha hi par ab unka diwaana ho gaya hoon

Dua maangi thi gulsitan ki chal padi aandhiyan jamane ki

Unke gham na samajh saka unki aadat thi mushkurane ki

Ab kahta hoon ki pyar us sey karo jo tum se pyar kare

Apney aap se bhi kahin jyada tum par hi aytbaar kare

Rukney ko kaho pal bhar toh koi soch vichar na kare

Do pal ke hi liye nahi par poore jindgi bhar intzaar kare

JINDGI KO SAMBHAAL JAATE

Aaj kal har waqt aati hai teri yaad jab ham akele hote hain

Bahut badh jaati hai dard jab woh mere saath nahin hoti hain

Ab kisi par bharosa nahi hai apne iraadon pe bhi yakin nahin hai

Mujhko liye jaa rahi hai meri jindgi kidhar khud pata nahin hai

Har lamhaa tumhari yaadon ka bojha liya chalta chala jaata hoon

Ab dil ko mahsoos hua hai ki tumhari kami sey peedit rahta hoon

Aag si lagi hai tan mann mein ab is ko kaun bujhaye yeh to bata de

Roj ki badhti dukh dard ko kayse kam karoon jara yeh to bata de

Jaana hi tha toh chale jaate par kuchh aysa toh kah ke jaate

Ki dil ko sukoon milta aur meri baaki jindgi ko sambhaal jaate

Koi Chaaraa Nahin Hai

Ham dono ke darmeyaan dooriyan aysee bhi hongi kabhi

Aysa to hamne sapne mein bhi sochaa nahin tha kabhi

Jab won mere saamne rahete thea dil bahelta raheta tha

Ab to unki tasveer hi hai lagta hai wo kabhi mera nahin tha

Unki khushboo unki chamak phail jaati thi mere sare aangan mein

Main unke kareeb rahta tha par ab wo rahti hain mere dil mein

Main unko mahesoos karta tha aur pyar se chhoo bhi saktaa tha

Unse justjoo hoti thi aur dil se dillagi bhi ho jaaya karta tha

Ab jab bhi unki aahat aati hai to dil mein ek sadma si aati hai

Dawd kar khojtaa unko ghar mein to wo kahin nazar na aati hai

Iss tanhaai mein jab main unke aayina ke paas jaata hoon

Aayina to mauzood raheta par usme unka chehra nahin dekhta hoon

Pahele jab wo hansti thi to chaman mein bahaar aajaata thi

Aaj jab main roya tab mere saath wo kyun royee nahin thi

Dil mein dard itna uthta hai ki ab sahaa nahin jaataa hai

Magar is dukh dard ki na to koi dawa hai na hi wajah hai

Yeh sabhi viraaniyan unke judaai se hampe ab chha gayi hain

Na din ko chain milta hai na raaton ko achhi neend aati hain

Wo jab jab yaad aati hain to Lakhan ko badi takleef hoti hai

Apne Saroj ko har dam yaad karne ke siwaa koi chaaraa nahin hai

Main Kya Karoon?

Bade mushkil sey pyar ki jindgi banaya tha

Apne pyaar ka maine aytbaar kiya tha

Ye dil to pagal hai ab kyun bujh gaya hai

Mere jeewan ka saathi ab chala gaya hai

Kal raat mujhe ek aawaaz ne chauka diya

Poochha to kah diya, hamko pahchano piya

Ham ek dooje ke hamraz thea hamrah bhi

Itna jaldi bhool gaye us pyar ka bandhan bhi

Kathin dard ki viraaniyan, yeh akela safar

Iss maahoul mein kya yaad aayega nazar

Jo yaad hai usko bhoolna aasaan nahin hai

Jo bhool gaya ab wo yaad aataa nahin hai

Mera haal kya poochhte ho apni to bata do

Ham pe kya gujarti hai jab tum hi nahin ho

Har raat ko aasmaan par taare ginata hoon

Neend aati nahin par ek khwab dekhta hoon

Ayse mein batado kya karoon kidhar jawoon

Jo dilwar hi nahin hai to dard kisko batawoon

Punar milan ki na aas hai na to tum paas ho

Ab main kya karoon jab tum yahan nahi ho

Haan ek guldasta sajaya hai tumhare liye

Jis pe phool chadha deta hoon tumhare liye

MAIN MAAFI CHAHATA HOON

Hamne aur tumne jo waadaa kiye thea wo chaahe tumko yaad ho ya na ho

Main to unhin waadon ko nibhaa raha hoon tum chaahe ab paas ho ya na ho

Wo jo lutf mila tha hamko tere labzon aur mohabbat ke raaj mein

Unke har ek lamhe ko meri zigar pehchaanti hai is najuk samay mein

Na ab koi gilaa hai na koi shikwa raha hai mazea ki jindgi bitayi thi

Tere pyar ke sansaar mein bada sukh chain tha behadd aaraam thi

Teri har ek adda teri sab nazaakat meri nas nas mein bas gayi hai

Tere jaane ke baa dab bhoolna bhi chaahoon to dil se jati nahin hai

Ab is viraan jindgi ko liye apne tanhaayee se zhagad raha hoon main

Na yahan koi mera sunney wala hai na kisi se baat karta hoon main

Jo ham mein aur tum mein chaahat thi ab aur bhi gaheri ho gayi hai

Tere jaane ke baad is soone ghar aangan mein meri dil kahan lagti hai

Kitna bayaan karoon in jakhmon ki wo to sab dil mein hain bahar nahin hain

Tumko to in sab ka andaaz hoga lekin yahan unhe koi pehchaante nahin hain

Dil par bahut chot lagti hai yeh soch kar ki ham ne tum ko koi sukh nahi diya

Siwaye dukh lakleef ke koi khash kushi ya koi aaraam bhi nahi diya

Paschataap ke kaduye phal chakh raha hoon dil mein bhara hai bahut dard

Sochta hoon ki agar aur bhi pyar kiya hota usko to nibha deta apna farz

Meri sab ruswaayiya tumko yaad ho ya na ho par mujhe to yaad hai

Dil mein ek kasak si uthati hai ki meri gunah maafi ke kabil nahin hai

Tum nahin ho to meri duniya gham se bhari hai yeh tanhaayi khatakti hai

Jaate jaate muddke to dekh leti ki mere dil ke kitaab mein likha kya hai

Jo bhi kusoor ham ne ki hai un sab ka ab to koi ginti nahin hai

Kitni baar mar mar ke jiya hoon aaj mere rukh pe nakaab nahin hai

Akele baythe huye apni sabhi galtiyon ko ab ginta rahta hoon

Tum pe mere jurm ka koi hisaab nahin ab main maafi chahta hoon.

MERA MAKAAN HAI DIWAAR KE BAGAIR

Sara jahan ab toh uddas lagta hai unke pyaar ke bagair

Kayse ab yeh jindgi chale mere khoye yaar ke bagair

Is jahan mein yeh mohabbat bhi kitna anokha maamla hai

Apne pyaar ke bagair ya apne khoye huye yaar ke bagair

Ab phoolon ke bahaar mein hamko rakh bhi diya toh kya hai

Yeh ujada ghar aur uddas daman kayse rahe pyar ke bagair

Kisi ko fursat miley to aake poochh toh le mera haal kya hai

Ab toh Lakhan ji raha hai yahan apne Saroj ke pyar ke bagair

Unse bichhad ke apni jindgi betaab ho gai aur dil toot gaya hai

Yeh makaan to hai par wah mauzood hai diwaar ke bagair

   

Mere Dilwar Ki Duwaayen

Aaj kal inn dukh bhare raahon mein bhi eh safar aasaan lagta hai

Jahir hai ki yeh sab mere bichdey dilwar ki duwaawon ka asar lagta hai

Main ne jabse unko apne man mandir mein basaya tha safar rangeen lagta tha

Unke hi kar kamalon sey aasmaano sey bhi ooncha yeh mera sar lagta tha

Ek khush haal jahaan mein umar gujari thi wahin har kadam pe unka saya lagta hai

Unke chale jaane ke baad ab unki tasveer laganey sey mera yeh ghar ghar lagta hai

Unke chhatr chhaye mein toh Lakhan kaanton ko bhi seeney sey laga leta tha

Lekin ab toh agar koi phool bhi deta hai toh usko chhoone se usko dar lagta hai

Un dino kewal ek saks thi jo hamari har toote huye alfaaz ko samajh jaati thi

Ruksat ho gayi hai meri mehbooba toh ab kisi ko meri baat bhi samajh nahi aata hai

Kya karoon honi ke aagey ghutney tek kar dil mera ab rone lagta hai

Is sansaar mein sada din sey hota wahi hai jo bhagwaan chaahata hai

Aaj kal mere inn viraan raahon mein bhi yeh safar aasaan lagta hai

Lakhan tu chalta chal jab tak tere Saroj ka duwa tere saath rahta hai

   

YEH JINDGI KAHAN TAK HA

 

Is duniyan mein pyar ke kuchh khaas raaj hote hain

Hamare jaagti aankho mein bhi khwaab hote hain

Yeh to jaroori nahi hai ki har gham mein aansoo aaye

Kabhi in mushkurati aankhon mein bhi saylab aajaaye

Jo muddaton se mera tha wo to mera ho hi nahin paya

Aankhon mein aansoo bhare hain par main ro nahin paya

unhon ne kaha tha ki marne ke baad milenge khwaab mein

badkismati to meri hai ki main so na paya unki yaadon mein

yeh main manta hoon ki har gulaab pe titliyaan nahin aati

Hamesha dukn dard mein ro dene se siskiyaan nahin aati

Jab bhi kabhi ham unko yaad karte hain apne dilo jaan se

Par na jaane kabhi wo tabah kyun na hoti hain hichkiyon se

Ab toh mera waqt hi badalta rahta hai mere jindgi ke saath

Aur phir yeh tanaha jindgi bhi badalti hai mere waqt ke saath

Waqt na badla par mere dost badal gaye hain waqt ke saath

Rishtedar jo apne thea ab badal gaye hain doston ke saath

Jin deepon ko hamne hawa ke jhonkho se bachaaya tha

Unhi deepon ne aag ugal kar mera daman jala dala tha

Ab jab apna kalam uthaya hai to sahi alfaaz nahi milta hai

Main ab jisko dhoondh raha hoon wo saks nahin milta hai

Mat poochho ki ab mera sabr ka imtihaan kahan tak hai

Ab hamko to yeh dekhna hai ki yeh jindgi kahan tak hai

 

Yeh Kahani Aaj Nahi

 

Mere dil ke kuchh choton ne hamko chain se rahne na diya

Jab bhi chali purvi hawa main ne sirf unko hi yaad kiya

Ayse ro ro ke kyun tumne apne dil ko barbaad kar diya

Itne gam aate rahe tumne apne ko der mein azaad kiya

Ham ko kiske gam ne barbaad kiya yeh kahani aaj nahi phir kabhi

Hamare kushi dil ko kisne todd diya yeh kahani aaj nahi phir kabhi

Hamare dil ke tootney ka sabab poochho na sab ke saamne yaaro

Hamare jubaan par kahin phir na aa jaye naam mere dildar ki yaaro

Dard aur judai ka teer kha kha kar sahene ki kahani aaj nahi phir kabhi

Hamne kiskis ko pukara apne marham patti ke liye yeh kahani aaj nahin phir kabhi

Kya bataawoon kayse katati hai jindgi maayusi ki yeh kahani aaj nahi phir kabhi

Pyaar ke har baazi mein kaun haara kaun jeeta yeh kahani aaj nahin phir kabhi

Din raat tadapte rahe aankhon se ashq nikalte rahe yeh kahani aaj nahin phir kabhi

Peechhe jo choot gaya, aagey jo baki hai yeh bhi kahani aaj nahin phir kabhi.

 

 

ENGLISH POEMS 

Final farewell and the Last Breadth of Life

A year has passed since I last had you in my arm

I longed to be re-united with you with great charm

Nature didn’t allow this wish so I had to keep calm

I have to wait until my soul comes out in my palm

 

Come back my darling before the end of this life

I have waited long and this is my plea to my wife

This may be the last evening of my sorrowful life

It may be last and final call of this wretched life

 

Let’s join in darling before the end of my life

For my sake come and stand beside me my wife

Time’s running out and soon it’ll be end of my life

I have tried to live but it’s hard without my wife

 

I’ll enjoy while making the last journey of my life

Your assurance of return will satisfy my lonely life

I’ve been yearning to see you return into my life

It’s the last call before my soul gets out of my life

 

I just want to give you my salute my dear wife

I’ll abstain from tomorrow for the rest of my life

Cos’ I’ll come and join you forever my dear wife

I‘ll never ever make another such call in my life

 

But before I start let me take the last sip of life

I want to tell everyone I’m going to see my wife

My people have given me the last shower of life

They’ve wrapped my body put it in a coffin rife

 

  

It didn’t take long to light the pyre to end my life

No one’s here to care for me after the end of life

They’ve quickly let me off to go and meet my wife

It is the essence of living and the meaning of life

 

The world treats you so when you reach the end

It’s the final farewell and last breadth at the end

I dared a lot of pain and suffering during my life

When the time comes I’ll say final goodbye to life

 

It’ll be final goodbye to the world to meet my wife

It’s my farewell time and final breadth of my life

I’ve seen much sorrow and great betrayals in life

It’s no use living when you’re lonely without a wife

 

Let this universe be all yours my people I’m going

Whatever I was asked to do here I managed doing

Take me to the memorial gardens and end my life

I’ll rejoice this journey I am going to meet my wife.

 

                                         MEMORIES OF HALF A CENTURY

Where have you gone my love?

I am still searching your cove

There are many memories here

Some I can’t others I can hear

Some in home others in my heart

Nothing could ever tear us apart

Many people think you’re gone

I just feel you’ve just moved on

You did not like being positive

I live daily just staying positive

Mere thought of your presence

Is enough to give an impression

That you are still so close to me

It seems crazy but it has to be

We both were attached for years

How can we detach with tears

You were my pretty lotus

I’ll never forget that status

I was wild and you tamed me

You loved and cared for me

Our every day was made jovial

Your love was very ceremonial

You were such a fun to be with

Your personality was no myth

Truth, beauty and goodness galore

Gave me joy kept our love in store

Days are dull your absence is painful

I long to talk but life is distasteful

I owe you for all that you taught me

I can now cook, wash and serve me

Thank you for your tender loving care

When I join you we will learn to share

Life isn’t the same my heart is broken

Your departure hurts I am all shaken

Lakhan’s treasure is Saroj’s fond memory

It has reigned here for over half a century.

          

 

WHERE IS THE PRINCE?

Do you still remember how it used to be

Nothing else mattered but only you and me

Lovely music, good food and country roads

Loving moments hand in hand no other loads

We had many dreams we had real good times

Our life was full of joy we were in our primes

I am missing you heaps but can you also see

My days are long and my nights torture me

I remember I remember the lady of my love

The one who gave me joy and was my dove

Where’s my dove gone I don’t seem to know

One year has gone but I still have your glow

Time simply stood still as I have you in my arm

We longed to live forever enjoying this charm

Our journey of a thousand miles came to an end

We couldn’t bid each other goodbye in the end

Saroj reached her heavenly abode to rest in peace

Lakhan’s burning in hell his suffering won’t cease

A light has been burning in my heart ever since

My princess is gone away but where is the prince?

                                  

                                                  You Were My Angel

Everyone knew you were my angel

Full of purity and my divine angel

You came from heaven into my heart

I loved you dearly right from the start

Now you’re no more and I’m really lost

This shouldn’t have happened at any cost

Your heart stopped but mine is broken

My feelings are shattered I’m shaken

I’ll not feel the same until we meet

It’ll be when my heart stops to beat

You gave my heart a reason to beat

But we finally lost the love and heat

I’m missing you more and more each day

Life’s shattered and I’ve great prize to pay

Lakhan is lonely without his Saroj around

My Saroj is gone away and can’t be found.

 

 

The Lover Is Crushed

The loneliness of the heart that’s filled with pain

Is felt only by the one who has suffered the pain

Now I am living a life that has nothing to gain

My beloved has gone and I’m feeling the pain

She gave me a life so bright and full of lustre

I am surrounded by darkness I can’t muster

My home is now filled with shattered dreams

A place filled with sorrow gone are all gleams

All her fond memories are my talking partners

Prayers for her salvation are my daily starters

There’s no such place that’s as sad as my home

Place that’s without hope comfort is out of my dome

A person with so much pain inside still lives here

There are cries without tears sobs you can’t hear

This is the life of Lakhan a devotee of his beloved

His Saroj is gone forever now the lover is crushed.

 

 

Saroj Is The Pretty Lotus Of These Gardens

 

I want to shout and I also want to cry

I want to hide and I also want to try

From all pain and sorrow but how can I

It was not that easy to say final goodbye

I want to scream and I also want to run

My life is very empty and there is no fun

It happened to me but I say why oh why

I want to move on but I cannot even try

I loved my beloved more than she knew

She left me all shattered when she flew

The passing away has hurt pain is deep

All my promises I was not able to keep

The tender loving care she gave is here

Love she showered is so deep and dear

How can I forget no one is able to tell me

Go on erase fond memories, don’t tell me

My mind views her movie of love and care

Nothing’s faded, her photos I sit and stare

I loved her and keep the love lamp burning

Half a century of memory is still churning

Memories are treasured and live in my heart

That is where I’ll make my garden so smart

Lakhan’s heart has many memorial gardens

His Saroj is the pretty lotus of these gardens.

 

 

                                        No One Is Here

I gave you my all and I am trying so hard, I am trying my best

I am trying to live my life without your head on my chest

Thou art no more is hard to believe but I have to accept

You’re still living in my heart that has not slept but wept

You were there to guide me but I do not know what to do

I cook, I shop and I go for a ride but all these are without you

There is no desire there is no inspiration and I am confused

I wanted to come and join you but yam doot has refused

It is hard to live in the present when the mind dwells in the past

I do not know what I have lost and I know not how long this will last

I live in a world of loneliness and am drowning in the lake of sorrow

I am struggling to move on but all the roads have become so narrow

Lakhan longs to live the same caring and loving life you gave him

His beloved Saroj is gone and no one is here to be with him.

 

                                                   FOR HER SAKE

 

The empty feeling here is making me very tired

I feel all alone and lonely but more than retired

At night I lay in bed staring at that cruel ceiling

It looks like a wide screen shows all past feeling

I sit up when you are part of that loving moment

I begin to call but you do not make any comment

I go to sleep with these fond memories in my eyes

I long to have that dream that give me the old ties

Dreams are just dreams far from your presence

They can’t heal my suffering but act as penance

I yearn to stroll hand in hand in our back yard

Gaze at the stars and the moon with your card

The card that you gave me when I turned seventy

That was the most precious gift out of the plenty

When the moon is up the whole sky then weeps

Tears flood my thoughts then the heart sleeps

I am left to imagine your touch that gave me joy

All is so gentle, loving and kind like a child’s toy

I never expected this to happen not in my dream

Prince charming is not part of  peach and cream

It was your sweetest smile that melted my heart

The strong feeling was ingrained in me from start

Whatever can be the reason for me to feel this way

I know that strong feeling grows stronger everyday

All the year I have been praying to grant you bliss

Every now and then I dream but that too is amiss

I’m badly wounded and can’t ever heal my senses

Your passing away broke me into thousand pieces

No one has any clue of the pain I’ve been through

It’s hard to guess the sleepless night I did accrue

Darling you’ve left me with all these heartaches

Friends see me smiling but can’t feel my aches

I can’t just surrender the pain and let things go

To ease and cease the misery I need to go slow

My happiness means seeing you happy and gay

Let me say this once more I love you everyday

Lakhan sheds a few tears how much can he take

Saroj knows well that I can live well for her sake.

 

 

 

 

My Saroj, The Pretty Lotus Of My Pond Is No More

 

It was Tuesday 12th March, 2013

The light of my love went out this day

It was Tuesday 10th February of 1959

My friends said it was Valentine’s Day

Whatever it was I found my love that day

That was  fifty five long years ago today

It can be said it was many years ago

It can also be said once upon a time

In the calm and tiny island of Fiji

That I met my pretty lotus first time

A love that was love at first sight

A love that bloomed as days went by

A love that never faded come what may

I  lived with no other thought at all

Than to love her and be loved by her

I was a country lad she a city girl

That match was approved in heaven

Our love was much more than love

We loved , my pretty lotus and me

We lived with no other thought at all

This was the reason we always bloomed

This was why we both always groomed

This was our destiny and our loving path

We made it last and last and last

Time was of no matter at all to us

Money was no clatter at all for us

Living with love was our only aim

Loving each other was our only claim

Our love was much more than love

We were put to many hard tests

We passed them all as best we could

We were united in matrimony with joy

We became two bodies with one soul

We led a brilliant peaceful family life

We deeply adored every day of our life

Our love was much more than love

We happily nurtured our four children

Each one was a jewel in the crown

They made our life all full of fun

They gave us joy of royalty worth a lot

We lived and loved with added pride

Trotted the world with lots of ride

We worked with  glory and fame

In the calm and tiny island of Fiji

We moved to Aussie land with joy

Did all work as best as we could

Our love was much more than love

Success and happiness shared with pride

Together we made many progress alright

Our pride was love of our grand children

Each with talents and skills galore

These were the reasons we rejoiced

In Aussie land and the island of Fiji

Our love was much more than love

Days went by and we were getting old

Our love matured and we were told

Slow down so we retired and lived well

Each day was a sacred day for us

We believed in our rich silent prayers

But a severe storm developed in our life

My pretty lotus met a serious disaster

Her lungs and heart both got tired

With the faithful service she gave us all

Medical team did the best to improve her

But nature had its own way to prove

That whoever comes must  also move on

That storm blew her soul out leaving me alone

My pretty lotus left me for good never to return

She was an angel but others envied

Love that they had never seen before

Neither the angels nor the demons

Could spare the life of my pretty lotus

I, a distraught lover looked at the sky

Yelled, cried and pleaded for her life

No one helped and she was gone

Our love was much more than just love

Now the moon never shines for me

The sun is always setting at wrong times

The stars have all lost their twinkle

The breeze is blowing the other way

The earth is trembling and shaking

The sky is getting darker and darker

The sea of love is getting stormy and rough

All these coz my pretty lotus is gone

All these coz I am alone and lonely

All these coz my love is love no more

Nature isn’t helpful but the bright eyes

Of my pretty lotus shines as ever

She is resting in a tomb I cannot see

She is looking at me I can still feel

She is still my only love I had known

She is my pretty lotus I have treasured

Our love was much more than just love

My Saroj, the pretty lotus of my pond is no more

Where art thou, come or call me to you

I have a lot to say to you and much to do.

 

 

 

 

I MISS THE TIMES

Where have you gone my darling

I can’t locate you here my darling

I miss the times when you were here

Giving me support to tell me not to fear

I held my head up high and felt strong

I loved to hear the choice of your song

Your looks and gestures I miss them all

Your words and thoughts were my call

Your sweet voice was the sound of music

Whether it was said in private or in public

You warned me what was right and wrong

You whispered in my ears if I took too long

Such a caring person you tamed all my ways

That helped me love life and made my days

Your guidance led me through the rough day

You loved me so dearly that changed my way

You had control over all the things in our life

You came as a solid rock and became my wife

My faults and errors you accepted as normal

This was divine and you were always formal

You stayed at my side and loved me so dearly

You made me proud by serving me so clearly

Then that day you decided to leave me and go

I crumbled but began doing all that I could do

No one could persuade you to come back to me

No miracle saved you from going away from me

Crying and mourning could not bring you back

I prayed hard and found out what was my lack

I couldn’t hold your soul leaving me for good

My prayers were weaker I finally understood

Lakhan had to give up his fight with the nature

Let Saroj go and think about my bleak future.

 

                                 

 

WHERE IS MY SAROJ TODAY

 

No one can imagine that pain so deep down inside me

No one can feel the sorrow so intense down inside me

I cannot explain these in words and can’t simply write

Times are difficult life is hard and my living is so tight

The reason for these changed conditions is my loss

Gone was the most precious treasure, wife my boss

She was my life, she was my love and she was my all

She was loving, she was pretty she always stood tall

The pain of her departure has torn my heart and soul

The sorrow of her passing away has changed my role

A loving husband has been turned into a sad widower

A strong man is now failing everywhere and is weaker

This loss has affected my eating, sleeping and living

She cannot be easily forgotten she was so forgiving

There is a feeling of loneliness and I am living alone

The shine inside me quickly died after she was gone

No one can fix my life they can only repair this pain

Kind words, frequent visits and tender care by people gain

There is no greater pain to witness for me on the sad face

There is no deeper sorrow to hurt me at this hearty place

Eyes now can’t see my beloved but I’ve all fond memories

Heart can’t feel her presence but I’ve all her energies

My sad heart is vaulted and I’m scared to let anyone in

There’s no one as sweet and loving as you to be found again

It doesn’t matter how many oceans and rivers I sometimes cry

My heart will never let you go and I don’t want to say good bye

Lakhan now spends a lot of his time where you used to lay

He sits alone, wondering and saying where’s my Saroj today.

 

 

                              A Gift Of Eternal Love

You were the love of my life, my wife and my sweet heart

Our fate was strong and allowed us to join our heart

Our meeting was godly arranged to set our destiny

You and I clicked and talked till we made our amenity

I knew it was love at first sight and you agreed

We talked, walked and loved for so many years indeed

I loved you so much and for only you I cared

Your love was deeper and much pure I compared

We left for our call of duty but returned to share life

We were united by ceremonies to become husband and wife

Our longings were over and we began our family life

Each and every day was full of joy living in bliss

Life gave pleasure we sealed our day with a kiss

We managed our life so well that we became a model for all

We kept our vows and our love was like a waterfall

Life had moved so well and we were living in retirement

Ecstasy reigned love flourished and we had contentment

The heart that I was living in failed to support me

The lungs where my breadth stayed cool failed me

My love couldn’t win to keep you living any more

God snatched you from me but I got your soul to store

You’re gone but your golden memories are not forgotten

All my dreams are shattered but you are forgiven

I will never get to feel your most intimate touch

Every one knows though that I love and miss you so much

Lakhan loved you dearly as a gift from above

Saroj was the gift of time and my gift of eternal love.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My House is Not a Home

Here is a lonely place filled with pain

A grieving soul lives here with nothing to gain

He’s surrounded by darkness overwhelmed with shame

He’s living a solitary life with no one to blame

Here is a place I have been living after my loss

Its a place that holds only shattered dreams

It’s a place filled with sorrow with no end in sight

I live here each day and try to sleep every night

 

This is a place so cold and lonely

This is a place I now store my wishes

This is a place without much hope now

It’s a place where my soul lives now

 

This is a life that should have never been

This is a place I feel where this life should end

Its hard to bear one more such sad day

Its hard to live a life of such heartache and despair

 

This is a person with so much pain inside

Feeling of loneliness and no one to hear his cries

When the tears stop then he can see clearly

His question will be ‘Do people know me?’

 

This is a man who has lost his valued treasure

This is the person who is searching for his lost pleasure

This is the lover who has lost his sweetheart

This is that husband who mourns for his wife.

 

His wife is gone forever and he laments daily

His pains and sorrows keep escalating daily

His lives in a house that’s not home any more

His pretty lotus, coz his wife lives away in heaven now.

 

                I LOVE HER STILL

My life was a bed of roses when my pretty lotus was around

That family life was unique when there was her melodious sound

Life has completely changed after the demise of my pretty lotus

My entire world of love and lustre has fallen apart to prick like cactus

How do I mend my broken heart and find hope in this wilderness

When the one I adored so much has gone away leaving behind bitterness

The mind and body are saturated with pain but living on fond memories

All that we shared all that we loved I now long to put in my documentaries

The bright and spicy look in those gorgeous eyes are no more in sight

The mystic smile on the charming face is no longer giving me the light

Our moments together were precious and many that can’t be forgotten

My resolve is to cherish them all forever and don’t let them go rotten

Your Lakhan has always loved you my angel and always will

I loved my Saroj more than self then, now and I love her still.

 

 

 

THE PAIN WILL SOFTEN

Nowadays I like this game of life that I play

Sometimes I close my eyes and then fade away

My body mind and soul float to a special place

It is beyond the stars the moon and the space

In this sacred place when I open my eyes to see

There are only two people there, my Saroj and me

All is beautiful here and feeling of love is right

There’s no pain, no sorrow everything is bright

There’s compassion, understanding no sadness

There’s no interference and no such madness

We’ve our own rules of love and our own ways

There’s no wall to separate us we like our days

There’s no one to disturb us, we do what we want

We don’t only love but we show how we chant

Chanting stops and the game comes to an end

My eyes open and reality sets in and I descend

Those few moments were very soothing and lovely

I’ve liked the game and want to play again surely

If Lakhan loves this game he should play it often

Saroj will give him company, and the pain will soften.